I AM CHARACTERISTICALLY ABSORBED IN MYSELF
IN MY OWN ANXIETIES AND CONCERNS
I CAN TELL MYSELF TO STOP IT — BUT THAT IS NOT EFFECTIVE
WHAT REALLY HELPS ME IS SEEING THE
BEAUTY OF GOD
IT SHIFTS MY MIND FROM MY SELF-CENTERED PREOCCUPATION TO
TO HIS GLORY,
TO WHAT MATTERS MOST.
I CANNOT HELP BUT NOTICE THAT THE WOMEN HERE WHO SEEM PARTICULARLY MATURE ARE WOMEN WHO CONSTANTLY GAZE ON HIS BEAUTY. AND WHY DO THEY DO IT? THEIR OVERWHELMING DESIRE IS FOR GOD — THEY WANT HIM DESPERATELY.
HOW DO WE GAZE ON HIS BEAUTY?
TOZER SAYS IT IS WHERE WE GO IN OUR MIND…CONTINUALLY THROUGH THE DAY. THE FOLLOWING ARE WAYS TO SET OUR MIND ON HIM:
- HIS CREATION
- HIS PRESENCE
- HIS POWER
- HIS WORD
- HIS CROSS
It’s all around us — so it is a matter of being alert and giving thanks.
This last week I returned to my cabin. As I ride down through the woods toward the water, the knots in my neck disappear. This place always lifts my soul beyond my self-preoccupation to think about our magnificent God. My son J. R. and his fiance Dianne came, and he helped me get some footage for the curriculum on Idol Lies. I often think of Ann Voskamp’s quote “my camera is a hammer” — how hammering one nail (seeing and thanking) can drive out another (not seeing or thanking.) J. R. ‘s camera was a hammer.
The second night there was a gorgeous sunset, but we didn’t realize until later that it was an extremely rare solar eclipse. We could see that better on the film. Do you see how the moon has eclipsed the sun? How can you see this and not have your heart quickened? He is Lord of all!
When I see His glory in nature, I say, with the psalmist:
When I look at your heavens,
the work of your fingers,
the moon and the stars,
which you have set in place,
what is man that you are mindful of him?
HIS PRESENCE (IN SUFFERING)
J. R. suggested I go down to the beach before the sun disappeared so he could get me walking in front of what we still thought was simply a magnificent sunset. In my rush, my sandal caught on the steps between the deck and the beach, and I somersaulted onto the rocks. I knew I was in trouble. J. R. cried out and came running. Even in the midst of blood and pain, it was a comfort to see how deeply he cared — his tears, his prayers, his scooping me up to get me to the house. His fiance Dianne grabbed a package of frozen blueberries to hold on my goose-egg, and off we drove to the Sturgeon Bay hospital for me to be stitched up. They prayed all the way. Though I was in distress, I also, through these two, sensed God’s care. I deserve nothing, but I sensed His calming presence. We suffer every day in small or big ways — but we must let that suffering draw us to Him, help us sense His presence. (And at least my fall was romantic — tumbling into the sunset…)
I have also sensed His presence in the kindness of strangers…they see my battered face and go the extra mile — even the security agent who patted me down yesterday at the airport was especially gentle and soothing! Every time I hurt it awakens me to how hard it is to be hurt, to be “poor,” to be vulnerable — and how much I need to sense Jesus through others — and I have!
HIS POWER (WHEN WE TURN FROM IDOLS)
J. R. is my firstborn. I was twenty when he was born: a lost, spoiled, and foolish mother. Despite all that, God’s grace rescued us, and J. R. has grown into a godly man. However, before God awakened to me to my idol of control, I was continually trying to fix my adult children instead of simply praying and trusting God. J. R. and I often disagree, and sometimes the view from my Presbyterian perch seemed so very different from the view from his Pentecostal perch, even though we were looking at the same Lord and the same Gospel. Continually I wanted to show J. R. that my view was the right one and his was the wrong one! I did it openly and side-ways, for my control idol was very creative. This only led to hurt and withdrawal. But in the last five years, as “The Stonecutter,” has been chipping away at my control idol, I have been awakened to a new appreciation of this son and his perspective. We still often see things differently, but there is a new sweetness in our relationship. This is the power of God which can only be released when idols are replaced by Him.
How thankful I am for this restoration. Intimacy with my family and with my God. I think of what Rebecca said, “Intimacy with God is like a stream — and I don’t like the rocks that get in the way.”
This week I have been convicted by His Word, but it is a good and beautiful piercing, awakening me from my default mode of self-preoccupation. I was freshly reminded of how often I confine my Christianity to those who are closest to me — to those who affect me! But oh — that is not God’s heart for me. He wants me to bring His love not just to those who are close to me, but to those for whom His heart breaks. He cares for the oppressed, the lost — for those who like the Ninevites “do not know their right hand from their left.” (Jonah 4:11) How deeply that has been re-emphasized to me again this week as I’ve been reading Keller’s: Generous Justice.
The first point that particularly awakened me is that so often we think of giving to the poor, the prisoner, the oppressed, and the lost as charity, which we might think as optional — but the Bible calls it JUSTICE. It is unjust to withhold, it is unjust to disobey God, it is unjust to shut up our compassions — all these are forms of sin. A fresh definition of sin, which Jonah so vividly illustrates, is running from God.
Jonah ran from God when he refused to forgive, refused to have compassion, and refused to obey.
And we do too.
And a fresh definition of grace, is God pursuing us, rescuing us from our self-destructive behavior.
Are we really destroying ourselves when we refuse to forgive? When we refuse to give justice to those whom God has called us to give justice?
Yes. That is what Jesus says. Perhaps the two most famous chapters are Matthew 25 (sheep and goats) and Isaiah 58, the passage we will look at this week.
I remember the first time I heard a sermon on Isaiah 58. It was from Greg Scharf (a pastor Renee and I were both blessed to have) who became John Stott’s back up preacher and is also the main preaching professor at Trinity. I was pierced by his exposition of Isaiah 58. When God speaks to your heart, there is a quickening, an awaking from the dead. It’s been thirty years, but I still remember Pastor Scharf’s words:
As evangelicals we often define Christianity in terms of private morality —when it is so much more. It is, among so many things, “to pour yourself out for the hungry and satisfy the desire of the afflicted…” He said that it was hard for his wife and him to continually do this unless they had people move right in with them — that was the best way they knew to continually show hospitality to those in need.
That was the beginning of a journey of ongoing hospitality for Steve and me, to adoptions, to a different lifestyle. God in His grace rescued us through His Word from our self-destructive behavior. Yet I need continual rescuing, because I have what Martin Luther termed: “curvature of the soul.” I need to continually gaze on His beauty by being in the Word. Day in. Day out.
Here’s a quote from Generous Justice:
If you are a Christian, and you refrain from committing adultery or using profanity or missing church, but you don’t do the hard work of thinking through how to do justice in every area of life — you are failing o live justly and righteously.
This week you will hear a free sermon from Keller on Isaiah 58. But as Keller says at the close of this sermon, and this is SO IMPORTANT, these passages can make you feel guilty — but guilt is not an effective motivator. We may respond for a few days — but most likely, we just get immunized. We would rather live with the dull ache than to truly and completely love — to forgive, to give, to love as He does.
So what do we do?
We must gaze on His beauty.
When I lost Steve, what helped me the most was to know that Christ loved us so much that He went all the way to the cross. I knew He understood the pain of being separated from the One He loved the most. I knew that, as the Man of Sorrows, He “sat shiva” with me.
Even this week, though this trial of feeling and looking like I’ve been in a prize fight, is a much smaller trial, the cross comforts me. I look in the mirror and see a face that looks like it has been beaten, and I think, “You looked much worse. You were beaten for me. You understand my pain and shame.” I know He understands and cares. That’s the beauty of my Savior. That’s what changes my heart and lifts me beyond my self-preoccupation to being His love in the world.
This is another two week study — you need the time because of Memorial Day Weekend, and I need the time because of my accident! But this is such important material, I think it is God’s plan to slow down. Go at your own pace or follow this time line.
Most of all — keep setting your mind on His beauty — and these five ways may help show you how.
1. What stood out to you from the above and why?
2. Do you have a praise for something that happened over the Memorial Day weekend?
3. you saw His beauty? (See my five ways above)
Wed/Friday Bible Study
It is so easy to appear to be walking with the Lord, when in reality we are pointing our fingers at other people, shutting up our compassions to those in need, and “hiding” from our own flesh and blood. This is a passage that can change your life. Study it — then listen to Keller — and its beauty can awaken you!
4. Read Isaiah 58:1-2 and describe how they had an appearance of holiness.
5. But, according to Isaiah 58:3-5, what revealed their true hearts?
6. According to Isaiah 58:6-7, describe a “true fast.” Don’t be afraid to let Him speak to you hear — He loves you and wants to bless you.
7. We hurt ourselves when we disobey God, when we run from God. What blessings do we forfeit according to Isaiah 58:8-14?
8. What is your take-a-way and why?
Week 2: June 3, 2012
Jonah gives us a fresh definition of “sin” and “grace.” (Look at above pictures)
9. Share a time when you “ran from God,” but He pursued you, rescuing you from your own self-destructive behavior.
Tuesday-Friday Keller Sermon
This is a free sermon entitled “Justice” available on the Redeemer Ap under MP3’s and then under
Renewing the City (Look for Justice)
or go to this link — it looks like you will have to purchase it, but it will be free
10. Explain the importance of justice
11. How does the Bible define justice?
12. Keller closes with talking about how beauty can change us, but guilt will not. Take copious notes!
13. What stands out to you and why?
14. What is your take-a-way and why?
12. Keller closes with talking about how beauty can change us, but guilt will not.
This is what I got from this one:
Guilt doesnt last beauty does!
I had my appt this afternoon and the MRI is essentially unchanged, only a very small amt of growth. I am so thankful! The hearing changes are unexplained but that is ok. Thank you so much for your prayers!
I had appt with podiatrist yesterday for myself and he thought I should take Joey to a pediatric neurologist. So that is next for him.
anne–thank you for the update–don’t like the “growth” part–but will trust you as nurse when you say that’s ok;)
continuing prays for joey
Yes, you have been on my mind, Anne, so I am glad for this update and will pray now for your hearing and Joey.
Anne, that is such great news!!! Thank you Jesus!! I will be praying for Joey!
Anne, I am concerned about the hearing changes you mentioned. I’m am guessing here that means hearing loss. Are you going to have a doctor check into this? I hope you don’t have to wait too long for Joey to meet with a pediatric neurologist.
Diane, iam concerned too about these changes but I take comfort in the MRI. My doctor prescribed prednisone which I have hesitated to take because the dose is so high but will start tomorrow. I have to trust her so I do.
Thanks for answering my question, Anne. I will be praying that the prednisone helps your condition. Thanks for sharing this.
That’s wonderful news! Thank You, Lord.
Anne, so glad to hear this news!! You are such an awesome mom-glad that you have received counsel from the podiatrist and hopefully the pediatric neurologist will help you all get to the bottom of this-poor Joey!
Ladies, I am asking for prayer for me and my husband as we head out to Dallas tomorrow. I will be meeting my step son, daughter in law and new baby grandson all form the first time. My husband will be meeting the IL and grandson for the first time and reuniting with his son. Please pray that we have safe travels and that my step son and husband can find the bond they need to have their relationship grow strong.
I’m hoping to be able to listen to the sermon as we drive but don’t have Internet on my IPad so won’t be able to read any posts until we reach Arkansas which is our planned stop to rest tomorrow before we head on to Dallas on Sunday. I will be praying for all of you for God to touch you in your lives where the touch from Him is needed.
Will be praying for your trip to be wonderful and safe!!
I hope your trip is a wonderful new beginning for your husband and for you in the relationships with his Son and family.
Amen to those prayers!
oh Julie that sounds exciting–meeting them all for the first time! Praying for safety, and for blessings on your husband and son’s relationship
Praying, Julie, for safe travels and relationships.
14. What is your take-a-way and why?
I don’t do anything to get anything from Him, I just love Him. That is the beauty that will get me out of myself.
This is my takeaway. God please stop me in my tracks and open my eyes when my world crumbles and I think-but I have sacrificed and done all of this for you and you allowed this? It gives me a pit to think words like that could come out of my mouth, yet I know they could-my heart is wicked and deceitful-only you know it well. I want to hold you up above all, but I need you, every minute-I am frail. Tear myself away from me so that I can love you more.
Rebecca–i hear lyrics to a new song in this “Tear myself away from me so that I can love you more.”
Elizabeth-;-) wow-didn’t think of that..wish I could write music though..;-) Love your Gravatar heart picture by the way-did one of your little ones draw this? I am thinking of changing mine too, but can’t figure out what I want to use. 🙂
Amen to that prayer.
Just wanted to let you know that I am leaving this blog.. I have come across a blog by Sarah Martin? Anyone familier with her? Anyway she ministers to women in their 20s and is doing a online bibel study this summer called stress points!!! I have viewed some of her things on you tube and its making me soo excited to begin~! Love you ALLL~
We will miss you, Meg. Love to you!
Blessings on you, Meg. Don’t forget to check in from time to time.
we’re getting ready to leave town for the weekend–but i was just thinking, i really wish I knew all of your birthdays! anyone want to share? 🙂